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5th March 2004
: ... Stupid Drivers...
I almost hit this car today... It would have been the other person's fault... I swerved and missed them... Good thing there was no oncoming traffic... I was like going 40... 4th March 20043rd March 2004
: Beep!
I have 4 ... count 'em! FOUR MINUTES of edited Nashua Sleepover video. And there's still more footage that I have to include. I figure a minute or two a day will keep me off of a con withdrawal... Sleepover withdrawal rather... But now that I said that, I utterly miss everyone... Ohh... :( Let's see... Today was just another day... In TV I finished editing us into the Breakfast Club. I say I because I worked on the editor... Alone... For like four days straight. That's 6 hours of editing. Mind you, I like editing, so I was content, but that's 6 hours that my group did absolutely nothing. . . Well, Andrew helped a little ... That's about it. Journalism is fine. We're trying to fix stuff on my pages. I'm in charge of the layout for 4 pages now, but finished two already. I have a vocab quiz tomorrow, and I still have to look up the words for it... 30 of them. I am so lazy. :) Well, 30 more days, including today, until con! I think I'll type that list now... HERE'S THE SONGS THAT WILL BE PLAYED (IN ORDER) DURING THE DANCE AT CON! If I am missing a song, or the order needs to be changed, just tell me!!! Or if you really want a song off of it, tell me. This is it if I don't get any feedback... Remember, this is your dance too!!! I was trying to go for songs to skank to, songs to grind to, songs to just dance to, but no slower songs, no headbanging really... And no songs that you cannot dance to. We have older songs just because they rock. 1.) Ice Cube - You Can Do It 2.) Darude - Sandstorm 3.) Billy Joel - We Didn't Start The Fire 4.) Less Than Jake - Magnetic North 5.) Jock Jams - Megamix 2000 6.) Eifel 65 - I'm Blue 7.) Madonna - Die Another Day 8.) Red Hot Chili Peppers - Love Rollercoaster 9.) Darude - Feel the Beat 10.) Queens of the Stone Age - No One Knows 11.) Maroon 5 - This Love 12.) Reel Big Fish - Sell Out 13.) B-52 - Love Shack 14.) Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You 15.) Kelis - Milkshake 16.) Fabulous - Youngn 17.) Lilo & Stitch - Hawaiian Roller Coaster Ride 18.) DJ Encore - I See Right Through To You 19.) Animal House - Shout 20.) RX Bandits - Sell You Beautiful 21.) Less Than Jake - Faction 22.) Ludacris - Get Out The Way 23.) DJ Encore - Walking in the Stars 24.) Linkin Park - Nobody's Listening 25.) Radiohead - I Might Be Wrong 26.) Nitribit - Memories 27.) Rednex - Cotton Eye Joe 28.) Vengaboys - We Like to Party 29.) Dandy Warhols - Bohemian Like You 30.) Sister Hazel - Change Your Mind 31.) J.Lo - Jenny From the Block 32.) Daft Punk - Harder 33.) Simple Plan - God Must Hate Me 34.) Mighty Mighty Bosstones - The Impression That I Get 35.) Faithless - Insomnia 36.) No Doubt - Hella Good 37.) Junior Senior - Move Your Feet 38.) Reel Big Fish - Trendy 39.) Paul Oakenfold - Ready Steady Go 40.) Brand New - Sic Transit Gloria ... Glory Fades 41.) Sublime - What I Got 42.) Brian Setzer - Jump Jive 'n' Wail 43.) Cherry Poppin' Daddies - Zoot Suit Riot Have a great day everyone!!! Current Mood:
 pleased2nd March 2004
: I Hate Teenage Emotions
I went to the Yoga club after school. It was a good stretch... Yay... I'm trying not to say how bad I feel right now, because I know you folks probably don't want to hear it... Fuck my life... Well, just today. I'm so ... emotionally unstable. I was happy like an hour ago... Then I looked into a mirror and I noticed that I looked like I was about to cry... Then I actually cried. And now I'm just in a shitty mood. Yoga was good... And I'm almost done with that damn video project, YAY! Later people. Current Mood:
 pessimistic1st March 2004
: NO more EMO RACHEL!!!
Today was back to normal! Figures the day I go back to school I become mentally content... Ppsshhh... Whatever. I can't wait till next con... I feel like crying because I miss everyone!!! Yeah, so Carolyn and I are hosting the dance party! It's all on us! But we have permission, sooo we are good to go! I've basically finished the final mix of songs. I'll post them when I am really bored. I got no homework! YAY LIFE! My journalism teacher's being nice again! WHHEEEEHOOOO!!! LOL! And I've started to just ignore the annoying people in my classes... It's wonderful. I'm so happy. Life is good... I miss all of you con kids! :( But, if things work out like I hope, I'll be chilling with awesome people this weekend... YAY! Wow... Who knew I could be this happy after a day of being at school? Haha, I wonder what I'm smoking and where I can get some more... ... I'm not really smoking... btw... but you probably guessed that. LOVE!  You are one of the few out there whose wings are truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and divine, you are one blessed with a certain cosmic grace. You are unequalled in peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of Light your wings are massive and a soft white or silver. Countless feathers grace them and radiate the light within you for all the world to see. You are a defender, protector, and caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver of the wrong, chances are you are taken advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often. But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in everyone and so this mistreatment does not make you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will try to help misguided souls find themselves and peace. However not all Angelics allow themselves to be gotten the better of - the Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting for the sake of Justice and protection of those less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever change - the world needs more people like you. *~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~* brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood:
 ecstatic29th February 2004
: Play
Last night was amazing.. Andrew's play: Boomers Promises Made Not Kept, was amazing. It had a great message and it was so sad... And everything that went on in the play actually happened to families during the times... It was amazing... If I get to choose what I can do for my term paper, I'll probably do something with the Vietnam War... All the protests against it, I mean... Cuz there is no way that I am for war... So, I'm off to youth group soon... I'll see you all later, because I have to get ready. Andrew, if you read this ((which you probably won't but oh well)) great job! I know I already told you that, but I think it came off too insincerely, well, it was sincere. It was great. You were great. Those backflips were amazing.... Haha, I think I was just in shock from seeing you that I couldn't really think correctly, because it's been like a month! We definitely need to chill sometime! Love! Oh... The Great Gatsby... I would like it if I didn't have to read 120 pages today for school tomorrow... Oh well, I procrastinated and that's what I got. Only 19 more pages left though! Yay! More love! Current Mood:
 jubilant28th February 2004
: ... Whee!
I was so hyper today.. Sorry if I scared anyone I talked to... This was the first day that I've had no bad feelings all day... I thank Alec for giving me something to laugh about. ;D Love you, honey! Well, I'm off to see Andrew's play... Yay! Heh. I hope I don't get lost. I'll take Alec's number just in case... He knows Nashua better than me at least... Heh. Oh well, whatever. Later. Current Mood:
 hyper27th February 2004
: Getting Better
Before I start those random "how do you match" things again, here is a brief update. I saw Brandon today, he came over, we watched four movies. He brought Spaceballs and Army of Darkness... I forced him to watch Whatever It Takes (a chick flick, with some comedy in it), and The Rites of Passage. I heart the Rites of Passage, it's kind of a weird movie but whatever. Yeah, good times. So, vaca is going O.K. I guess. I still want to get school over and done with so I can chill with people over the summer... And then my mom's gonna be gone for awhile, meaning I can have people stay at my house and stuff. No party shit though. Maybe just a few people to get drunk, haha. Later.
Love you babe!
Servents... Hah. Sounds like us.
Skinny dipping, huh? Love ya!
Two peas in a pod, hah, I can see that.
I miss home... Home meaning all of you wonderful folks at the church.
Let's see if we can make that kid happen, huh? Heh, just kidding, love you!
Aww, I want to be near the coast...
Woo... Games in the dark! ;D
Aww... Need chaporoning and resent having to kiss? Sorry, I guess I'm just not right for you... :(
I love you sweetheart. :D
I have yet to see lavish gifts... But whatever, I love you just the same.
Follow our dreams... Nice. We need to chill more, bud.
Hey, let's just never test that whole kid thing, okay? LOL. But I do love chilling with you. Current Mood:
 relaxed26th February 2004
: Something to Ease the Boredom
: BoReD!
http://www.geocities.com/dewdropsofthes ^At the bottom of that site, there is the shirt I made...^ I AM SO BORED! I MADE THAT SHIRT TODAY! I made it from a pair of pants that I could no longer wear. I AM SOOO BORED! SOMEONE SAVE ME FROM THIS HELL! Current Mood:
 bored
: Being Here...
 Heart of Crystal What is Your Heart REALLY Made of? brought to you by Quizilla Despite the fact that I was surrounded by amazing people last night, I feel utterly alone... I hate venting like this in my lj, because I don't want other people to feel bad about me or anything. Last night I was with Shawn, Brandon, Alec, Marquis, Matt, and Messy. It was just suppose to be Shawn, but I thought he was cool with with group thing, because he didn't say anything. Turns out, he didn't want it to be the group... It made me feel shitty. But whatever, we had a nice convo with Matt and Messy... Brandon, Alec, and Marquis ended up just going to Brandon's house. I only had a half an hour left, so we just stayed and talked. Messy and Matt for most of the night were on a date. They are so adorable together. I love them. Yeah, but as much as I loved being with people last night, I feel the emptiness inside me... This unsatisfied feeling... I feel very lonely... I can't really help it, because when I am home... I'm alone. There isn't a soul in my house. There isn't a soul in the house next door... It's ridiculous. I'm completely alone in my neighborhood... My mom's working, I never see her on my vacations... And I really do care about her, as lame as parents can be... I really do care about her... But I'll hate her if she doesn't let me go to Summer's End. Okay... I'm off to read stuff for homework... I need to get motivated... :( I miss you all... I send my love. Current Mood:
 lonely24th February 2004
: AMAZING!
I HAD MY FIRST ORGASM TONIGHT!!! PROPS TO ALEX FOR GIVING ME THAT SITE!!! I LOVE YOU ALL SO VERY MUCH! LIFE IS AMAZING! NOW I WON'T DIE WITHOUT AN ORGASM! ... But now I want one from a guy... Anyone wanna help? I'm a horny little girl! Current Mood:
 horny
: News
http://aolsvc.news.aol.com/news/art If you have AOL that link will work... If not... I'm sorry... It is about how Bush wants to ban gay marriage... At least Kerry says it is a state thing... God damn Bush. I hate the man so much!!! He is against all of my principles... WTF. I can't even vote and I know more about politics than my 18 year old friends... Fuck 'em for being older than me and not knowing about politics... But I still love all you guys anyways. So anyways... I had a nice sleep, that's about all I really wanted to post... Oh wait... Last night, Carolyn and I went shopping! I got a halter top, a bra that makes my boobs look bigger, a lacy bra, and just my regular wearing bras... I got some nice underwear too... Two g-strings, and three bikini cuts that are wicked tight so they make my ass look big, hah. It was good times, I love that girl. Carolyn and I are planning a dance party for the next con... I'm thinking Friday night after worship that way people will still be awake. If anyone has suggestions, post them! Here is the song list... Animal House - Shout B-52 - Love Shack Billy Joel - We Didn't Start The Fire Cherry Poppin' Daddies - Zoot Suit Riot Daft Punk - Harder ((crazy remix)) Darude - Feel the Beat & Sandstorm DJ Encore - Walking into the Sky & I See Right Through to You DJ Sammy - We're in Heaven Fabolous - Youngn Faithless - Insomnia Ice Cube - You Can Do It J.Lo - Jenny From the Block Jock Jams - Megamix 2000 Junior Senior - Move Your Feet Kelis - Milkshake Less than Jake - Faction & Magnetic North Linkin Park - Nobody's Listening Ludacris - Get Out the Way Madonna - Die Another Day Maroon 5 - This Love Mighty Mighty Bosstones - The Impression That I Get Nine Days - Absolutely Nitribit - Memories No Doubt - Hella Good Paul Oakenfold - Ready Steady Go Queens of the Stone Age - No One Knows Radiohead - I Might Be Wrong Red Hot Chili Peppers - Love Rollercoaster Rednex - Cotton Eyed Joe Reel Big Fish - Trendy & Sell Out RX Bandits - Sell You Beatiful Simple Plan - God Must Hate Me Sister Hazel - Change Your Mind Sublime - What I Got Three Days Grace - I Hate Everything Lilo & Stitch - Hawaiian Roller Coaster Ride Vengaboys - We Like to Party Vertical Horizon - Everything You Want It is a mix that we hope appeals to all... There is techno, rap, ska, songs for skanking, and then some random crap for comedy that you can still dance too... Any problems with it, leave a message... If I'm missing some huge dance song or something like that, I want to know so I can add it... I'm going to finalize the mixes on Friday, so post before then. Current Mood:
 lethargic23rd February 2004
: Orgy-Not-Con
Before I update my journal, I’m going to tell you a dream I had… First one in awhile that I can remember. I bought a pack of cigarettes, and was walking in this place that looked a lot like canobie… It had a bunch of picnic tables under a roof, and when the picnic tables ended, it opened up to a grassy field. I sat down at one of the picnic tables looking out on the little shop that I had bought the cigarettes (which was on the other side of the grassy field) and it was right next to the field. I was kind of spacing it, and then I just took out a cigarette and lit up. I started smoking, and this guy came out of the store. I don’t think I know who he is, but he told me something that Dan T. told me, “You shouldn’t smoke those. Weed’s better.” I laughed. Later Catherine and Carolina came out of nowhere and sat down with me and this random guy. The guy was smoking now as well. Catherine gave me this weird look and was appalled at the fact that I was smoking… Carolina laughed in joy… It was amusing. I woke up and wanted nicotine… Is that weird? To have a craving for smoking when I’ve never smoked? ::shrugs:: Whatever. ---------------------------------------- Woo! Well, the first part of this sleepover sucked for me… Almost everyone who went knows why… ::Shrugs:: Whatever. It cleared up. So, Andy is an awesome guy. I ended up cuddling with him and sleeping with him the first night. He helped me out and made me feel better for the first night. I feel good about the experience though… Because I got to meet Emily, who will probably be a new conferee, even though this wasn’t a conference. She’s an awesome girl, and she’s so upbeat and happy. She makes me laugh. I met Trevor as well, and I spent quite a bit of time with him. He is a good guy too, taught everyone there how to crepe-walk. Well, I don’t know how to spell it, but it’s good stuff. Kind of funny, but good. I learned how to do it, not very well, but that’s what practice is for. I also met a few more people: Adam, Molly, Greg, and I think that’s it… If I forgot any newbies, sorry!!! It feels good… I got to build upon the relationships I already have, and stuff… I don’t know. I think I need to actually have a really good and deep conversation with someone. At the Nashua con, I had a pretty involved conversation with Garett… A.K.A. Langer. This time, I wasn’t really committed to one person… Like, I didn’t have any really involved conversations with anyone, but I had conversations with everyone. I know almost everyone there a little better, and it is really nice… But I kind of wish that I could really come out knowing someone’s opinion completely on a topic. Oh well, it is not that big of a deal… Anyway, this was only a sleep over… Being on the committee was kind of hard… Stressful at first, then it wasn’t at all. I’d probably do it again for another sleepover, but there is no way that I am taking it over in the DYC. As much as I would love to do something like that, but cons might end for me next year. I do not want to end my last con year by being stressed out on the DYC… However, this experience has shown me how hard it is to work with people… Especially at orientation or morning meetings. They take so damn long because of people constantly talking… Also, people do not fucking clean up in the morning!!! There were like ten people cleaning, and the rest were sleeping, or dancing… Whatever. We got it done and got out on time. Speaking of dancing, there was a dance party instead of a coffee house. It was pretty good. I love dancing with people and stuff. It was fun, because I was dancing with all these awesome people… Well, there were like six people actually dancing, but it was still good stuff. The weekend has already blended together… I miss it. I miss having all these people around me. Now, I am alone in my house blasting music… Yay for vacation… ::sarcasm:: If anyone wants to chill, contact me. I didn’t come home from Alec’s house until like 12:30 last night… Heh, I just didn’t want to come home. It was nice sleeping in my own bed again though… Love to all! To those that read this, I especially love you. Bye. Current Mood:
satisfied
:
Step 1: Open iTunes, or whatever mp3 player you use.
Step 2: Put all of your music on random. Step 3: Write down the first ten songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing. 1. Finger Eleven - One Thing 2. New Found Glory - Sincerely Me 3. Papa Roach - Last Resort 4. Sum 41 - Hell Song 5. Saliva - Always 6. Darude - Burning 7. Good Charlotte - East Coast Anthem ((blah)) 8. Jimmy Eat World - The Middle 9. Our Lady Peace - All My Friends 10. The Used - On My Own Pass it on! 19th February 2004
: Woo!
I'm happy. Soul Calibour 2, baby! It rocks my socks. Funworld brings good times. The sleepover is ... ::drumroll:: TOMORROW! I'm psyched! Only nine hours left of school. YAY! Okay, later everyone. Love. Current Mood:
excited17th February 2004
: Interesting
Just had a huge mood swing... I went from wanting to drive off a cliff to loving my ex, Adam. He's a sweetie. Granted I mean "love" as in a platonic sort of love. Yeah... It was interesting. Today sucked... But now I'm feeling a hell of a lot better about myself... Whereas 15 minutes ago I figured I was better off driving to Mexico and leaving everything behind. So, Adam, I love you, honey. Thanks. Current Mood:
moody
: It's 4:22 and I'm freaking at school.
I am so tired of this... Editing the school newspaper until five o'clock every Tuesday. I'm damn annoyed too... Fucking Battle of the Bands is on Thursday, and Brandon's taking me to Funworld. I know so many people in the Battle. I'm hoping that I can go with Brandon on Wednesday... I just remembered that I have two vocab tests on Friday... And that sucks. Well, Jared and I have a nice relationship going... We tell each other to die every five seconds. I'm only like that with him, probably because he's like that with me. Whatever, he's happy that he's made me an "angry" person, but honestly, I can't be not nice... It's just not me. So, I let him think what he wants, and we'll laugh about stupid stuff, and I'll be shallow and fit in to stop feeling so goddamn rejected... Because these are my choices... 1. Feel rejected 2. Fit in but become a self centered asshole It's not really pleasurable either way... But I'd rather fit in and act like a self-centered asshole only when I'm around the other self-centered assholes! Otherwise, no dice. I miss everyone from con... I miss having a job and money... I need cash... Or else I can't go to the sleepover... Because I'll lack the pay. MMmmmm... Sleepover. Okay, well, I need to go back to editing this damn newspaper. Can you tell that I am a little pissed? Ugh, I hate it here so much. I love Carolyn, and she's been so good to me... Keeping me in my sanity. She's such a great person. I'm glad that I go to school with at least one con kid... I have to appreciate that. I only with I lived closer to Nashua. OMG! I JUST REMEMBERED! My mom and I almost moved to a condo on the outskirts of Windham... Near Hudson! God dammit! It was only like 15 minutes away from the Nashua Church... Curses... Okay... Bye... Love, Stitch... Oh yeah, that's my new name. Hah, according to Alec and Brandon. Carolyn's started to call me it a little too. Current Mood:
 rushed16th February 2004
:
I'm damn lazy. I wish I didn't have essays to write. I wish I didn't have school... I wish I could be in the arms of a loved one... I wish I had a boyfriend. ::Sigh:: I am so happy about the sleepover! I can't wait! So, Carolyn didn't get killed by her parents, so I'm glad about that. I started making my story board today. It's looking damn good. I'm so happy that I'm going to be doing this video alone. I'll manage it. Woot! I want Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicals... But I don't have any money on me ... I glued a jewel to my nose, and it looks like I have it pierced... My mom's going to flip when she sees it. Youth group was satisfying last night. I saw Matt, who I haven't seen in FOREVER! And I saw Alec! And everyone else! It was good fun. I haven't seen the Hedges in awhile... nor Andrew. It's sad... Oh well... I got to chill at Denny's for a little while. I had to leave at 9:45 to be home on time... Yeah, I left at 9:50... And ended up actually near the church at 9:55... And that's a half an hour away from my house... Did I make it? Hell yeah! Hehe, it was good times. I was a minute late. But my mom doesn't care like other parents. I'm very happy to have her as a parent. Love, everyone! ... ... Oh, I hate people when they are having mood swings. My journalism teacher is usually awesome... I was e-mailing myself stuff for her class, so I could look at it at home, because our printer doesn't work in that room, and she yelled at me! She's seen me a million times updating my LJ and e-mailing my friends, but she yelled at me for actually working! It was ridiculous. Whatever. Okay, seriously this time... Bye! Love! Current Mood:
 flirty15th February 2004
: Ranting - WTF!
For once, I can't say what is on my mind. I am too afraid of that person seeing what I need to say... So, someone talk to me, please... Because I am lost and confused. Well, news wise... I went to Beatlejuice... And now I'm all like... "Woo! Beatles!" Yeah... It was good times. I video taped some of it, but this lady with big hair was in the way... She should really get rid of the whole 80s thing... Then I slept over Laura's. I had to leave Beatlejuice early, and I was rather pissed. We ended up just falling asleep while watching Under the Tuscan Sun. We finished it when we woke up at like 7:30 in the morning... It was only about 11:00 when we both crashed. Which is amazing for Laura and I. . . So, last night... It was fun. I hung out with Shawn, Brandon, and Carolyn. We were going to the 99 in Nashua, but it was a 2 hour wait... So, we went to Chili's... It wasn't too bad, I don't really like their food, but whatever. I had a virgin strawberry daquiri... I love those things. Well, Carolyn's mom is a bitch. And I want her to shove her head up her ass. Carolyn called her parents to tell them we were going to be home later than 10:00, like she was suppose to... Carolyn's mom then said, "No! Come home now! Be home at 10:30!!!" There was no possible way we were getting home at ten-thirty... Because we were at least 40 minutes from Carolyn's house and it was ten o'clock. So, I hate her mom... But we ended up parking in the church parking lot and talking. It was fun, but Carolyn got home at like 11:15... I hope she's not dead... I would have to assassinate her mom if she killed Carolyn... So, I'm pissed... And everyone heard me scream fucking loud last night... I was so fucking pissed. I screamed, and then my throat hurt. Brandon said, "Ow." It's kind of funny, because that was the first time I flipped out in about 6 months... But it still wasn't as bad as I can get, because I wasn't shaking... When I get really pissed, I shiver... Because my body gets so cold, I don't know why... But I do. Ugh. I feel bad for flipping in the car. I didn't want anyone to see that side of me... I hate that about me, that I can get so rip-shit about something... But I know Carolyn had to leave because of me. Because her mom doesn't like me... She hates me because something happened to me that I didn't want to happen and regret with all my heart. She hates me for something I really couldn't control at the time, because mentally I had no control over what happened to me because I just didn't care anymore. It's not fair for one's whole character to be based upon one flaw, that wasn't even their fault in the first place... ::Sigh:: I can't wait until youth group tonight. I need to talk to people... I need to see awesome people again. Granted last night was awesome, but I can't believe that I got so mad... And I need to apologize to Shawn and Brandon... They should have never seen me flip. Even though it was very minor compared to other times... OH yeah! I can't drive at night! I was so tired last night that I almost fell asleep on the ride home. My stereo was cranked all the way and I still was drifting off. My reaction time was so slow, and I kept on speeding and slowing down randomly. I tried to stay away from other people. Hehe... Since I didn't hit anyone, it's kind of funny. Sorry about the long post. If you read all of this, I love you. But if you didn't, I love you anyway. Later. Current Mood:
 aggravated14th February 2004
: Sigh
Hey, everyone! I found out today that Kyle is just mean in general, so I don’t have to worry about him not liking me… or acting like he doesn’t like me. Jared wants me to become a hard-ass… I don’t think I could ever really genuinely be mean to people. I’m in my journalism class again, and I’m wondering if I ever really do any work in here… But then I remember that I just finished writing an article, and I was done with my website like 5 weeks ago… So, now I have a lot of free time on my hands. Woo! So, I’m still in a good mood… I got a carnation delivered to me today, it was from Shannon. I bought her one during lunch, but I need to see her to give it to her. I’m so peeved… in a good way (if that is even possible). Shannon bought me a ticket to Beatlejuice. It is a band that does covers of the Beatles. I don’t really want to go to it, but she spent ten dollars on it, so I kind of have to go… Lame. I want to see her, she’s a good girl, but I told her that I have a sleepover to go to tonight… So, now I have to tell Laura that I will be late because I’m obligated to go to this… ::sigh:: So, I’m torn, because I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings. I guess I’ll be late for Laura’s house… Well, at least I’ll be able to give Shannon her carnation. I gave her a card, but I still felt bad, because I got a carnation in front of the whole class. Everyone in my French Class went “OoOohHh… Rachel!” And I was laughing inside, because it was Shannon… Whatever, I don’t know what’s going to happen… I’ll just play it out and see. Now, if you excuse me, I have to study for my American Studies class… Thankfully, this school day is almost over. I’m going to be early tonight… Early for a sleepover anyways. I’m going to be passed out at like 11:00. Later. Love. Current Mood:
 confused12th February 2004
: Another Day
Your face is so clear, Grinning and laughing, At your friends joke, That use to be me with you, And I complain. I say that I miss that, Your smile is too perfect, And it sucks me into, The memories that twist me inside, But someone comforts me. Here I am, Lying in a girl's arms, Not caring what people think, But still missing you the same, She says your an ass. I want to scream, But I never do and won't, I'm too strong to give into, Sudden impulses brought upon by you, So I'll get over it. I write this down, Because it hurts to know, We were so close, And now you've forgotten it all, I know you're an ass. It's just a vent, So don't take anything here, For how I really feel inside, It's just a vent, So I won't hurt me or you. And no one's going to know who that is about... Except Carolyn and Shannon, they can probably figure it out. Today was a good day, granted I wrote emo-poetry, but I need to sometimes because I get upset about stuff like everyone else. So, the poetry's a vent. Well, I am really tired... The Battle of the Bands was today, and some people in it were really good. Autumn Kills is going on, along with Venture and ... Well, I don't really remember. Haha. Whatever, I'll know later. But I know people in Autumn Kills, and I'm glad they made it. I'm coming right home from school tomorrow, there is no way in hell I am staying later... Oh, today was a good day... Besides the fact that I'm now doing a music video by myself... Whatever, I'll step up. Bye! Love! Current Mood:
 drained11th February 2004
: Content
Only so much left of school till vacation. I'm happy. I hung out with Adam today, he's a good kid. Yeah, we talked about a lot of things, and got each other caught up. That was good. This weekend I am going to use to get caught up with everything. I'm going to write my french essay on how Bush is evil, write my american studies essay on Franklin Roosevelt, finish reading The Sun Also Rises and write an essay on that. I have many essays, but its okay, I actually know what I'm talking about for all of them, so it is going to be easy. I think that's bout it. I'm chilling with Brandon, Shawn, and Carolyn on Sat. night. I'm seeing my grandmother that day. I'm going to a sleep over at Laura's on Friday night. It will be a good weekend. Sunday is free for homework. Perfect. Later, and I send my love to you. Current Mood:
 giggly10th February 2004
: Few More Updates
While I was gone: - One of my friends tried to kill themself. The person will not do it again, the charcoal stuff was gross, I guess. - I got really really horny. - Became a really big slacker. Yeah, so it was lame... Knowing I was away having fun and my friend was gulping down charcoal being forced to stay alive... Here I am complaining about being lonely and my friend clearly has bigger issues. I'm gonna try to talk to this person more. I miss hanging out with them. Yeah, that's about it. Love! Oh, yeah, I'm not just horny, btw. I am giddy, hyper, and horny... Okay, bye!!! Current Mood:
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